2024-07-26
Not Tired is a work in progress. It’s rough around the edges and may stay a draft for a long time. I’m sharing it to hold myself accountable to my goals. Writing a book has always been a dream of mine, perhaps because I romanticize the idea of writing. This book is a collection of the whys and hows of being me and the decisions I’ve made. It’s been a valuable exercise in reflection. While I wouldn’t say I’ve had an outstanding career, I’ve had a decent one in software engineering, solving tough problems. I used to think software engineering was my true passion, but it turns out I just enjoy solving interesting problems, not necessarily confined to software.
You can read this book in one go or by navigating through individual chapters.
Not Tired was the shortest phrase I could write in my journal to keep me going when my willpower wavered. I want to achieve so much more, but I face constant doubts and exhaustion. Comparing myself to famous and successful people, I’ve realized that it’s all in my head. If others have done it, it’s humanly possible. I’m just experiencing mini-crises over and over because I doubt my vision, even though I’m known as a strong-headed person who won’t listen to anyone — not that I recommend ignoring good advice. Not Tired is the phrase I repeat to myself whenever I hit a mental block and think, “I wish I could give up. I can’t go on.”
Many entrepreneurs develop systems to guide them along their journey, and this website is my way of doing the same. I thought it would be beneficial to share it with friends and family. It’s not that I expect to write a bestseller, but I want to document my journey, even if I eventually give up. I want to look back and say, “been there, done that,” without regrets. As Tim S. Grover said, “if you think the cost of winning is too high, wait until you get the bill for doing nothing.”
Copyright 2024, Brian Lee